Thursday, March 26, 2009

MEAN PEOPLE WEAR FUR!! ... NO REALLY THEY DO !!




OK so i have been struggling with either writing this blog or not writing this blog...I figured what they hay!! I have a real problem with mean people (my definition of a mean person)= someone who is never happy enough with themselves so they feel the need to make someone else miserable. I know of a person in my life that is just like that. Shall we call her ummmm Gretchen. This person is a family member and I have always loved her dearly and always got along with her until ... DUN DA DUN DUHHHHH .....She moved to Kansas I don't know what happened when she moved to Kansas but let me tell you... She has made every effort possible to pick on every move i have made in my life she thinks just because I prefer to be private about some things in my life and don't tell everyone every detail about what may or may not have happened. Well i guess this means i am a whiner and am trying to get everyone to feel sorry for me... HA HA. Or how about this one just because i wear makeup and fix myself up for big events family related that i am self absorbed and fake. I didn't know that it was a crime to take care of yourself? I thought we had this problem between the 2 of us settled. Well low and behold here she came again with another blow to my face, or abdomen or whatever else she could find to stomp on. Yesterday the comment she made on one of my blogs was unheard of and i was completely taken aback once again she was hateful and mean and put information out that she had no right to put out. (That information being that I had an abortion!!) OK i knew it was wrong i knew it took a life of one of gods children. I was 20 years old at the time and didn't know what else to do. I didn't even know she knew about this. But anyhow what she doesn't know is the issues the unborn fetus was facing. The Dr had given me an antibiotic and failed to do a pregnancy test when she gave it to me the antibiotic caused birth defects well.... low and behold I found myself pregnant. The Dr. did an exam and asked me when the last time I had a period was I was like well.... i had one last month but for the last 2 months they weren't regular. she did an exam and found out that I was indeed pregnant but my uterus was much smaller than it should have been well it was monitored over the next few months and the baby wasn't growing... Yes my baby was sick. The doctor then explained to me that the baby could be born without limbs or have some other grotesque problem and probably would not make it to birth and if it did wouldn't live long... So I had a very hard and important decision to make. I choose an abortion so i do believe it was a baby lost not a baby killed so thank you Gretchen for airing my dirty laundry in a comment on a blog on facebook. YOUR SWELL.:( Just some things are better left untouched because maybe you will not know all the details of the story. tetracycline was the antibiotic that i was given google it you will see what it can do. The thing i don't understand Gretchen is why did you comment on a comment from one of my blog readers after i was just telling them thank you for reading and explained that my depression started after i lost a baby.... you had to make it clear to the whole world i had an abortion why was that necessary? I didn't feel it necessary to let people know how I lost my baby. Just that it was a factor played in my depression..Guess where i struggle to understand is how could someone be so cold mean and vindictive? Is it for your own pleasure? I guess i will never know because I am not one of those people just remember i do forgive i just cant forget. Christian women do not judge remember? It is not our jobs to judge just to love unconditionally. Just because someone dosent behave in the maner you do dosent make it wrong for someone to be who they are. Many thanks to all who read my blogs and enjoy them I love you all
Crystal

2 comments:

Mish said...

I guess I missed that one. This I think is why I am such a closed off individual. People are not trustworthy alot of the time. Kudos Crystal.

♥crystal♥ said...

thanks so much michelle i am just tired of people and being so vindictibve and for no reason . thanks so much for reading my blogs and being so faithfull love and hugs to you
crystal